Well this is a strange time.. my due date for my first baby is in 2 days, so of course it’s all exciting but what a bizarre waiting game this is. Each morning I’ve woken up saying to myself, well it didn’t happen last night ( the general comments from the midwife being that’s when labour will start) plus each day I find myself juggling the desire to push on developing my own business, along with binge watching ‘Orange Is the New Black’.
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| Nigel Slater’s delicious brownies |
Whilst fielding regular calls from excited friends and family I have also been baking, a bizarre selection of items from Nigel Slater’s very chocolaty brownies to Davina McCall’s sugar free tea loaf – there’s even conflict in my recipe choice!
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| Davina’s sugar free tea loaf – even better toasted
Don’t get me wrong, I know I’m perfectly justified in doing very little at this stage in my life, with what is about to happen. My dear pals with kiddies keep telling me to just chill. Family members get more protective with each phone call,but it’s not in my nature to just stop.
Any small business owner will know it’s hard to just stop – as there’s always something to be done, yet i’m bouncing on a ball whilst at my desk, and every so often crawling around on all fours ( due to needing to move the bump a bit) so it’s not the ideal working set up. I have been bemused by several bizarre conversations with male clients over the last few days, who are asking me whether I’m scared. It feels like it’s the question they’ve always wanted to ask..
I’m not going to dwell on how I actually feel about the imminent labour. I’m now FULLY aware now thanks to the market trader in St Albans market on Saturday, who after informing me with a big laugh that I had ‘such a cute pregnant waddle’, went on to assure me ‘we all get through it though’..Sound advice.
But the waiting continues..it’s fascinating playing with time like this. Yesterday after a poor night’s sleep I didn’t actually get out of bed until 11.30am, much to my husbands amusement. Yes I made a good dent in @OITNB. Today however I was awake at 4.30am, thinking about how only a month ago, it was the time I used to leave the house to go and host my breakfast radio show for Heart.
It’s now 8.10am and I’m blogging, so taking full advantage of my focused mind.
I guess the outcome to my questioning is to continue to go with what I feel whilst it’s still just me and my other half in the picture. I know how very shortly ALL our priorities will change and can’t wait for all that lies ahead..
I just thought i’d make a record of today, probably for my own amusement. I’ll be looking back sleep deprived very shortly and thinking… WHAT TF!!
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